Having a hard time using this forum right now, every time I switch pages it logs me out. I have to re-login again on each page and each tab. Never had that happen before. Anyway, what I wanted to say was...
Thanks to everyone for the thoughtful comments & kind words.
With regards to applause: I don't require it. I usually have a general idea of whether something I play is any good or not, at first anyway - subject to revised opinion later, of course.
Quite frankly I've never liked having a bunch of attention focused on me - that's why I've always liked to play backup, rather than being the 'star'. It's a bit different with these mandolin videos - no one around here plays mandolin, so if I want a mandolin lead/melody part, I have to play it myself.
BUT... There's a difference between playing something that people either enjoy (or not), vs playing something that no one even *knows* if they like because they haven't even listened to it.
Kind of like being booked to play a concert only to find that the hurricane shut down the concert & there's no one in the audience - should the show go on? What purpose would it serve if no one hears it? The musicians can play at home, they don't need the concert hall. The audience members are the ones for whom the public concert exists. Without the audience, such a concert would be pointless, or at best a practice run for future performances in that same hall.
However, I guess everyone has different things that makes them tick (motivates them). In my case, for videos:
1. Mostly I like the technical challenge of trying to put the project together. Especially if I can find an excuse to add some simple silly 2D animations (dancing mice, or northern lights + UFO + Loch Ness Monster, etc). But usually there isn't enough screen real-estate for animations if the project has 2 or 3 video tracks that all need to be visible.
2. I also like it better when my various projects have at least some amount of relevance/usefulness for other people. Even if the 'only' functionality is to make people smile or tap their feet with the rhythm. (Having grown up playing oldtime dance music, if the majority of people *aren't* tapping their feet, then you're playing it wrong. But of course that's a genre-specific thing.) I don't regard this as being in the applause/recognition category, more like just creating something that's fit for purpose.
I suppose videos can serve another purpose that I hadn't originally considered when I started this video thing a couple years ago - keeping track of one's progress. I often look back at my older videos and think "Gawd that's awful!" But I guess that's a good sign because it means I've made enough progress to (eventually, sometimes) recognize my own bad playing when I hear it. More rarely, some of my older tunes still sound ok to my ear, means it either is actually good or, possibly, that I just haven't advanced far enough yet to realize all its flaws.
The ability to (later on) pick apart one's own playing, recognize the flaws and use that info to improve future playing, is probably essential to musical progress in any genre. I'm my own worst critic, "tough job but somebody's gotta do it." Lol.
IMPORTANT: I want to make clear that I do *not* think critically of anyone else's playing, I never look for flaws in other people's playing. That's just not the way my mind (such as it is) works. Rather, I just enjoy what people present and I try to get into the flow of the music when I'm listening to someone else play. The only exception is if someone specifically requests critical advice.
John Kelly wrote: "Now, a phone's keyboard is an instrument I have never quite mastered yet, JL. Real precision needed for that!"
Yes, phones are tricky little beasts!
Gelsenbury wrote: "New year's resolution: record something again."
Cool! Looking forward to hearing your recordings.